I know I have been gone for a while. I just needed an extended holiday computer break – it felt good, but it also feel great to be back...
There is just something about January issues of magazines. All the headlines offer so much promise for a new you or a fresh start. Whether the headline promises “The most stylish year,” “ Lose 15lbs fast,” “Find instant calm,” or “Your fittest year starts now,” I just cant help snatching them all up. It is like pure entertainment mixed with resolution research – or if you like, call it falling off the magazine addition wagon.
I really would like this to be a good year, so I have been thinking a lot about resolutions and goals – trying to picture where I would like to be a year from now (or even further) and what will help me get there. I have really been struggling with it, the questions “who am I” and “who do I want to be” are really hard to answer. At least for me.
And I don’t think I have the answers yet. I only know bits and pieces... And the regular “resolutions” just didn’t seem like enough – I don’t just want to change this year, I want lasting growth, so I decided to take a more mindful approach. This almost backfired because I was a bit paralyzed in thought.
Then about a week ago, I heard something (or maybe I read it, I can’t remember) - it was the phrase “A bigger, smaller life.” The phrase resonated with me. I have a good life, but I want more for myself and those close to me. More doesn’t necessarily mean more stuff... It means fuller and meaningful. And smaller means more focused, simple and environmentally responsible – just as a start.
After writing down the phrase, I was able to focus my thoughts (no longer paralyzed) on what I need to do in order to build my bigger, yet smaller life. I made a list of the things I value, things I need to work on and things I might be missing. The list was long, so I sat on it for a few days and then whittled it down to a more manageable list.
On Friday, while looking through old computer files, I was inspired by a “Tree of Life” graphic I had saved. (A long time ago I wanted to create an embroidery design our of the Celtic Tree of Life, but never really got around to it.) My list was what I wanted for my life and the Tree of Life graphic represents that wish – so I decided to marry them together as a visual reminder to myself. I haven't sketched or drawn for a while, so this was fun - a full size version can be seen here. (Not sure if I will ever stitch it up – that is a lot of detailed stitching.)
My next steps are to flush out each of the areas into a “To Do” list or “To Remember” list. The lists will help me grow and get closer to where I want to be. Part resolution, part goal, part dream... It is as good a place to start as any. I, of course, will share along the way.